Writing helps me to get the emotions out. The toxic emotions mainly, I can hardly fight my emotions. Just figuring out what is wrong with the emotions associated with anger.
I seriously doubt where do these emotions come out, the toxic and ugly ones. No matter what I think about, I become more offended and less control in the emotions. Shouldn’t be letting the emotions to control me.
There was an incident, which am quite pissed. Later on when I started to peel it down to the least. I coudnt figure why I was behaving like a prick? I feel sorry for now what I have done. It was anger and hatred, guess it went in control my thoughts and feelings.
No wonder people often say – dont take decisions, when you are angry. It is true, need to figure out a way to control these emotions. Keep them out my emotional lifecycle. There are several incidents in my life, which resulted in major downfall. Well, few of those turn out to be the best decisions. Still, regret things I did in the past.
I should understand, the same emotion cycle is with everyone. At the momentum of anger and complexion, things go pretty much nasty. Damn and Damn.. what should I do my dear subconscious mind. I am quite angry about my country, about my family and everything that is connected. Am angry in a way or the other.
The worst part is, feel sorry for the anger and momentum of things happening at that point of time. When I drive, lose my temper. When someone tries to enforce control over me. Things go bad. Or when someone tries to avoid me. These are things which makes me angry. Sometimes, I break myself during these mental stimulations.
Well, I should find some mechanism to solve all these troubles.