Am so pissed with fake emotions. recently one of my relative passed away. Everyone around me is crying and weeping for the loss. I coudnt see these souls cherishing the memories when the lost was alive. What the hell? Why do you have to mourn the loss now? To show the world they do care of the lost soul? I seriously dont get the dilemma.
Why do people do that? They act as if the whole fucking life is fake and people are buying the crap. It’s funny at the same time, to see these people mourn over the loss in a fake manner. Pity on such people, what do they get.
It would be good if you had cherished good moments when someone is alive, rather than mourning when they are dead. We are always busy with something in our life. Trying to find hell lot of excuses, just to be selfish and rebrand that as busy life. I even do that, but I openly say that. Come on, i dont fake emotions with anyone. If I dont like someone, I stay from them and remain uncontactable.
It is funny to see the people are living in the world of approvals. Approval from them. Then what life are you living for? Approval for having a nice family, buying a car, home, and everything comes under other approval. I need to fake the emotions, otherwise, people will start to judge me. Seriously, it is like you are on an opera play. fucktards !! that’s the term I call them – fucktards.
As I write, my anger starts to cool down. I have to live in my own way of life. There is no need for approval if you care for someone. Express those feelings when they are alive, not when they have passed away and unreachable. If you fail to express when they are alive, you are selfish. If selfish accept the fact, that you are selfish. Dont hide from it. Keep emotions real, they make some sense in your life. Live a life, which makes meaning to you. If you dont like something, express it out or move out. Your life is not a prison to live of a toxic human.
Liberate the soul from the toxicity. Let things make more sense as you start to identify the real emotions in you.